Thursday, April 21, 2011 9:15 PM

It's a new start for me (:

♥ Tan Jackson.Hey Guys !
Woah~ So long ever since i last posted (:
I got rid of everyone that gave me stress.
NOW I'M REALLY STRESS FREE EH! :D
Now needa study more le larh ! hahahahahaha (:
Misunderstanding and many things occurred (:
Now i know how much people trust me :D
But nvm uh ! Friends wun be there for you forever (:
Strive to look for those who's willing to care for you forever !
After today , dunno when can update again bah ?
Cause i really seldom use computer lerh!
So many things has happened (:
I dun wish to share it here .
PRIVACY LARH ! hahahahahaha (:
I'm loving my life more and more.
SO interesting :D
I learnt to look at things on the BRIGHTER SIDE !
Burn you noobs (:
Anyway , there's a basketball game at 178 every Saturday
from 7 - 10 am (: Feel free to join me alrights ?
Give me a text is possible !
Off now ! (:

Labels: a brand new life (:

Sunday, March 20, 2011 11:08 AM

Haix...

♥ Tan Jackson.My time has been greatly reduced again...
This time is serious .
It not only affects me okay D:
I'm so tired of everything...
So stressed up nowadays .
Gimme back that hyper Jackson can ):
I dun have time for a lot of things i wish to do ,
Things i wish to have ...
This time , i'm really going emo ._.
Fucked up .

Labels: Guess I'm still a loner afterall ...

Thursday, March 10, 2011 9:58 PM

Last December ; My fairytale (:

♥ Tan Jackson.Am i so boring? >.<''
I believe i am not? :X
Had so much fun in the class with my awesome classmates :P
So stupid too! :X

Anyway,
It's time to change as everything chances (:
I'm not gonna lag behind like i used to.

HEY! I'm Tan Jackson (:
The one you've never seen before :P
This is me. Like it , or not !
By all means (:
I'm not gonna change for you.
Cause i dun wanna be taken granted :D

Heyyou! It's up to you to catch up with me.
I'm speeding against time !
HAHAHA !

If you don't reply me ,
how am i to text you? O.O

You won't notice i need you (:
Because i don't even talk to you :X

You've just wasted one second of your life !
Provided you're sad just one second ago :P

You will never understand .
I'm just here ; yet you don't see me
:D

Labels: totally inlove with LIMEGREEN

Sunday, February 27, 2011 7:54 PM

I'm all alone .

♥ Tan Jackson.Went back for my hair cut!
Mum was sure my hairstyle isn't acceptable.
She scolded the hell out of me. Said i look like a Beng .
Now with my new hairstyle. Short and sweet. LOL!
Cooling sia. High Slopes ; Short .
Back to Sec 1 & 2 memories (:
Didn't wish to care bout hairstyles anymore.
This will most likely be my hairstyle for quite a long time bah?
SHORT! hehehe (:

Recently... Many things happened. What can i say?
ahhahas (: Am i important? Does anyone need me?
I'm getting tired each and everyday. Homeworks? Friendships?
Bestfriendship? Everything..Seriously, EVERYTHING.
I'm taking a break. I dun wanna loose anyone.
I hate the feeling of being one-sided.
I dun wanna live a life one-sided...

MENGENN Er Ge! Where have you been ):
What happened already!?
I WANT YOU BACK LARHH D:

Bestie...many things happened between us .
Can't we be pure besties? I totally dunno what's happening .
Your blog. everything. I read and i was like " ? "
I'm not updated about you at all..
Is this wat we are? haix...

Mummy , You are great. It was son that failed.
I wanted you to be close with me.
but you seem to suspect me.
I know i suck in expressing myself.
But wat can i do ...
words seemed easier to express myself.
But i suck at it too.
I wan to share with you everything about me.
I wan to hear and listen to your anger and stuffs.
I wanna talk to you on phone like we used to.
I love receiving text telling me you had a good chat with me.
Text which shows you really appreciate me for who i am...
But it has been so long... not having any msgs like this..
I'm tired. Schoolwork and troubles are coming after me..
Give me time to settle myself. and i will be back to your good son.
Mummy, dun leave me. Please. I need you ):


Haix.


I felt that i'm just a useless tiger ,
I made your life miserable.
I found all sorts of excuses.
I tried many ways to get out.
My chance was here. Of course i would take it.
I seriously need a break.
I'm sorry i made you dislike me so much.
I dun feel good either... I hate it.
I'm tired of feeling one-sided.
I'm tired of feeling myself being over-concerned ; Extra .
when you dun even give a dam .
you might think i'm expecting too much.
actually i didn't. i just need a bestfriend feeling.
Perhaps it was me that doesn't know how to appreciate.
then let me be. i'm that stubborn one.
I didn't feel you change at all. Seriously.
Perhaps watever i do were just extras.
You dun need me bah?
The reason why i'm trying to disappear is because..
I felt me bringing misery to your life.
Perhaps i'm another him.
His birthday is just 2 days before mine.
Perhaps both of us are the same kind? Lol...
I dun wanna give you misery.
And since i can't bring happiness to you ,
I chose to disappear..
But it wasn't easy you know...
Now that you found someone you need ,
i guess it's time for me to seriously fuck off lerh bah? (;
I dun have the power to recover everything back to normal already..
I have done all i can. I was madly happy during the whole of December.
With you around (: I know you wun be there for me forever . (:
I need to adapt sooner or later.
I'm weak. Freaking weak. I'm holding on my tears as i typed.
You're really very important to me. That's wat i can say.
I need time to put down everything bah .
I said i will be here for you . I mean it .
You can come to me when you need me. But i doubt so already.
I would keep my words . my promises .
Forgive me for being so retarded.
As i said . This is me .
I thought... The days in december.
That he was no longer in your mind..
And i could go back to last time where we were the happy little ones.
I was the one who was lagging behind time .
The one who retardedly thought that nth would change.
It fact, EVERY SINGLE THING ON EARTH CHANGED.
A year. It changes everything.
I was myself like who i am when i was sec 2 and you were 1.
You could accept me the other time. And not this time.
It was fate ? perhaps we shouldn't even be so close.
Thanks for all the memories you gave me when we were young.
I thank you for the last december. I wouldn't be so happy without you then (:
I thank you for telling me so many things about you.
I shall keep this memories in me . at least they were so wonderful (:
We weren't stead. I didn't love you at all. You tot i did.
I just wish to get back to last time. As fast as possible.
I wish to have you back like last time.
Until i realise.
" Jackson Tan , Forget it. It's impossible "
Move on boy . It's a different time now.
It's time to Wake up.

Labels: The word you wrote ; Bye .

Saturday, February 26, 2011 1:50 PM

Afternoon people! :D

♥ Tan Jackson.I just went to cut my hair ! x.x
omg. I cut overlap ehh!
Just trying out the hairstyle (:
I really hope it is acceptable in school (:
Very cooling sia :D Cos behind is overlap.
WHICH MEANS GOT SLOPE. HAHAHAHAHA :D

Well,recently...Everything is rapidly changing.
I dunno whether it is good or bad.
I shall just wait and see if anything good would happen :D
I believed being optimistic is the best medicine already :P
Lessons everyday till 5.10 , my god! hahhahaas.
Wish me luck! I'm going for badminton on monday! :D
I guess :X

It doesn't matter who, when, or where...
You can always use a hug.
- Hope Floats

Labels: Numbed Feelings .

Saturday, February 19, 2011 11:10 AM

This is me .

♥ Tan Jackson.I'm back posting again! After so long (:
Thankyou OINKOINK !
For making such a beautiful blog for me! :D
I LOVE IT OKAY!! hehe :D
New year was nice! I loved it (:
Bought new stuffs! :D
Bag,Vest,Specs,earpiece and stuffs!
ROARRR! :D
Going to collect my specs tml (:
New look , new bag! OFF TO SCHOOL!
hahahahas (:
My life rocks!
Learn to look at things in the bright side (:
It makes your life easier !

Mummy :
Maybe you just dislike me bah?
I hope you wun continue to pick on her...
Our Mummy-Son relationship is going to end if this continues..
Can we not have such topics in future?
Do i really need to choose one?
I feel so restricted making my own friends..
I dun like it ): i hope you understand...
I need you ; but it doesn't mean i dun need others.
Everybody needs friends. And friends are nvr too much.
Just the true ones...
Son is always so not updated about you.
And you're always so not updated about me.
We didn't have time for one another,
and we came about misunderstanding each other,
disappointing one another...
I hate this feeling D:
Can we be Mummy-Son without all these troubles?
We dun talk about things that make us feel bad...
can we? I still wish to share things with you.
And different from now...
We're always having conflicts...

Labels: D:

Wednesday, February 2, 2011 10:15 PM

New Year's Eve

♥ Tan Jackson.HELLO PEOPLE! :D
JACKSON USE HIS COMPUTER LERH EH! HAHAHAHAS.
Happy Chinese new year everyone (:
Hmmm...Personal thoughts and quotes for today? :D

Have really been busy and stressed up nowadays (:
Where's the stress-free Jackson?
Hahaha (: he's still around larh.
Just that. It might be rare chance to see?
Brothers are all busy , and stressed too!
Problems, Troubles, there's not enough time to share all,
so sometimes, blog might be a good way to express it? hahaha (:

I realise, at points of time, i may not have anyone to turn to,
any close friends who i can rely on.
I'm independent! That's a good sign.
But i have to rely on somebody once in a while right?
I dunno? hehe :D

Sometimes, the person is just right infront of you,
yet you never notice.
perhaps you already took granted of that person,
he/she may just be so sad/heartpain,
to see you in fake smiles, like you needed someone beside you.
but he/she couldn't do anything, no matter what he/she does,
it's just not enough...
你想要的,我却不能够给你我全部,
我能给的,却又不是你想要拥有的...

I'll wait for you
As long as I have to
Just say you love me
And come back to me
I'll be listening for you
To knock on my door
You're the one I'll be waiting for
I'll be missing you

Sometimes, it's just that people dun feel it (:
Caring,love and everything else might not always be visible .
Some are difficult to even sense it.
Being emotional could not solve things.
People would come around, looking at you.
"EMO!" that's wat they will say (:
Well well, in my life,
my word is , "HAPPY!"
hhaahhaa (:

I find that i'm quite alike to this quote below!
I think? HEHEHE :D
Anyway, it's really meaningful :D

You never lose
by loving,
you only lose
by holding back.

What will i be if everything happens?
Things would never stay the same...
Everything changes with time.
What can i do?
Things that i dun wish for might just come true,
and we have to change with time!
Those who stays in the past, laid back,
would eventually get hurt,
and everyone would say
MOVE ON MOVE ON MOVE ON! ><

Labels: Who says so? I care .