Sunday, February 27, 2011 7:54 PM

I'm all alone .

♥ Tan Jackson.Went back for my hair cut!
Mum was sure my hairstyle isn't acceptable.
She scolded the hell out of me. Said i look like a Beng .
Now with my new hairstyle. Short and sweet. LOL!
Cooling sia. High Slopes ; Short .
Back to Sec 1 & 2 memories (:
Didn't wish to care bout hairstyles anymore.
This will most likely be my hairstyle for quite a long time bah?
SHORT! hehehe (:

Recently... Many things happened. What can i say?
ahhahas (: Am i important? Does anyone need me?
I'm getting tired each and everyday. Homeworks? Friendships?
Bestfriendship? Everything..Seriously, EVERYTHING.
I'm taking a break. I dun wanna loose anyone.
I hate the feeling of being one-sided.
I dun wanna live a life one-sided...

MENGENN Er Ge! Where have you been ):
What happened already!?
I WANT YOU BACK LARHH D:

Bestie...many things happened between us .
Can't we be pure besties? I totally dunno what's happening .
Your blog. everything. I read and i was like " ? "
I'm not updated about you at all..
Is this wat we are? haix...

Mummy , You are great. It was son that failed.
I wanted you to be close with me.
but you seem to suspect me.
I know i suck in expressing myself.
But wat can i do ...
words seemed easier to express myself.
But i suck at it too.
I wan to share with you everything about me.
I wan to hear and listen to your anger and stuffs.
I wanna talk to you on phone like we used to.
I love receiving text telling me you had a good chat with me.
Text which shows you really appreciate me for who i am...
But it has been so long... not having any msgs like this..
I'm tired. Schoolwork and troubles are coming after me..
Give me time to settle myself. and i will be back to your good son.
Mummy, dun leave me. Please. I need you ):


Haix.


I felt that i'm just a useless tiger ,
I made your life miserable.
I found all sorts of excuses.
I tried many ways to get out.
My chance was here. Of course i would take it.
I seriously need a break.
I'm sorry i made you dislike me so much.
I dun feel good either... I hate it.
I'm tired of feeling one-sided.
I'm tired of feeling myself being over-concerned ; Extra .
when you dun even give a dam .
you might think i'm expecting too much.
actually i didn't. i just need a bestfriend feeling.
Perhaps it was me that doesn't know how to appreciate.
then let me be. i'm that stubborn one.
I didn't feel you change at all. Seriously.
Perhaps watever i do were just extras.
You dun need me bah?
The reason why i'm trying to disappear is because..
I felt me bringing misery to your life.
Perhaps i'm another him.
His birthday is just 2 days before mine.
Perhaps both of us are the same kind? Lol...
I dun wanna give you misery.
And since i can't bring happiness to you ,
I chose to disappear..
But it wasn't easy you know...
Now that you found someone you need ,
i guess it's time for me to seriously fuck off lerh bah? (;
I dun have the power to recover everything back to normal already..
I have done all i can. I was madly happy during the whole of December.
With you around (: I know you wun be there for me forever . (:
I need to adapt sooner or later.
I'm weak. Freaking weak. I'm holding on my tears as i typed.
You're really very important to me. That's wat i can say.
I need time to put down everything bah .
I said i will be here for you . I mean it .
You can come to me when you need me. But i doubt so already.
I would keep my words . my promises .
Forgive me for being so retarded.
As i said . This is me .
I thought... The days in december.
That he was no longer in your mind..
And i could go back to last time where we were the happy little ones.
I was the one who was lagging behind time .
The one who retardedly thought that nth would change.
It fact, EVERY SINGLE THING ON EARTH CHANGED.
A year. It changes everything.
I was myself like who i am when i was sec 2 and you were 1.
You could accept me the other time. And not this time.
It was fate ? perhaps we shouldn't even be so close.
Thanks for all the memories you gave me when we were young.
I thank you for the last december. I wouldn't be so happy without you then (:
I thank you for telling me so many things about you.
I shall keep this memories in me . at least they were so wonderful (:
We weren't stead. I didn't love you at all. You tot i did.
I just wish to get back to last time. As fast as possible.
I wish to have you back like last time.
Until i realise.
" Jackson Tan , Forget it. It's impossible "
Move on boy . It's a different time now.
It's time to Wake up.

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